have you ever wondered what your purpose was in life

i have

but then i think that i cant think that cos i believe all of life is predestined, with the one choice that not even God knows the outcome


have you ever wondered what it is like to be alone

i have

i know

after a 1 month and a half relationship nearly 3 and a half months ago ended

i sometimes still wake up wondering what happened, wondering what i could have done to keep it going, wondering whether i was wrong

i sometimes wake up from a dream of the 1st night i reeli had some fun, think i'm lying on that sofa with the springs recking my back, and then i return to normality, and i hate myself


have you ever wondered what it is like to hate yourself

i have

i do

but not many ppl know


have you ever wondered what it is like to look at the lass, or lad,or both (in my case 6 of them, lads and lasses, but thats besides the point) and wish you were with them, that they liked u back, or you were still with them

for me, i wish i was still with 2 of the 6, lasses of course, and i wish i could have if not a big relationship, but a small one with the other 4, 2 lads, 2 lasses, and it can not be so

so i cast my eye up, and carry on


have you ever wondered what it is like to be me